*Giggles*
I have never really been one of the, "girls", as you would call it... I never wanted to be. It was easier to fit in with guys. No fighting over stupid things, makeup, dolls, shoes, ick... I don't ever really remember playing with dolls, until I was older, and that was with a girl down the street.....
I will admit, I love some things girls do....
1: The color purple, it's my favorite!!!!
2: SHOES
3: Cloths
But, that's about it.... I do not like romance novels, Twilight saga. I hate romantic movies..... Not big on hip-hop, Brittany Spears, crap like that.....
Something most don't know about me, is that I have been designing cloths since I was able to hold a pencil!!!!! It's a great passion of mine. I hope to one day, be able to sell my designs in other countries around the world!! Sharing a little of me with them.
I do not design much anymore. I lost my talent for it... My hands are not steady enough to draw what i need.
~Plans for today~
1: Find a wedding dress, because my parents are bugging the hell out of me.
2: Find out what I don't like about the wedding dress.
3: Talk my parents into letting me do what I want with the dress.
4: End up getting something totally different, because I want it.
5: Be me, and have fun!!
Because that's the way life for a girl should be. She should be a princess in all aspects.. But, I do not, ever, feel like one. Well, unless I am with Daniel. He makes me feel love, feel worshiped... I will never understand the way that man loves me. I am just happy, for the time being, being loved by him.. Daniel has always babied me, gotten me what I wanted, given me what I asked for. But, most of all, when i was sick, he was the one that stuck by me. Others ran, scared. But Daniel, for some reason, didn't, he stayed and proved to me everyday that he loved me.
I fall more in love with that man everyday. He's charming, oh so very charming. He's handsome! He's INTELLIGENT, and funny!! (two qualities that you rarely find together in a man) But most of all, Daniel makes me feel like I am worth something. No man has ever done that before. He embrace's that i'm different, and he loves it. We clash a lot, (argue) because we are extreamly strong willed, and minded. Which can cause tension in any relationship! But, at the same time, I have never found anyone that I want to fight with more. I, sadly, enjoy ever fight. Because every fight leads to my tears, which leads to your embrace, which leads to a kiss, which in the end, leads to me loving him more!I got a little off track there, that's what happens when I talk about Daniel. I just love him so much!
Anyways...
This blog post was supposed to be about my wedding dress, but It turned into something totally separate. But, that's what normally happens when I write. My heart just thinks differently then my mind.
I'm just having an issue with the whole wedding dress thing. I'm not like other girls here in the U.S.A.. Others would be happy with a traditional white gown, but not me, traditional is not me, not me at all! It's plain, boring, silent. I have none of those qualities. I want my dress to reflect who I am...
OMG, and what about freaking colors, we are 4 days into the engagement and mom is already screaming at me over colors. I have no clue what colors I want. How am I supposed to know that.... I mean, come on!!!!
I understand that they are pressed for money, and time. Because October really isn't that far off... I think I'm just scared. Worried. I love Daniel more then anything. I'm just not sure what I'm afraid of.....
I got pregnant when I was 15, had a baby at 16, lost my at 17, gained a fiancée, and at 18 I will get married.... I guess it's just a lot to handle. Honestly, I am so excited, but at the same time, OMG just so scared!!
People I need help, help me, understand me.
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I am sorry that this post didn't stay in one place.
It was everywhere again today.
I just have a lot on my mind!
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Like always
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ILY
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Bye
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