True Beauty In Life: To Daniel,

To my baby girl Kathryn!!!

Kathryn, If I had to describe you in 3 words it would be fUnNy, CuT3, CrAzIi, Your adorable, we became like best friends thru facebook and we now can't stop talking to each other <3 your my other new best friend we connected the first day we started talking and you make me smile each day and everyday we talk and I love the fact that you make me smile either way we can't see each other! You fun to talk to, we hold GREAT conversations and they are VERY interesting ha! but you make feel special. And I believe that we would be best friends till each and one of our lives is over with! xoxoxo By: ShElBiE SeArS <3

A letter to Brittany!

I see that, but everyday has it's faults. look past them. I know you move a lot. And I know that it always hurts. But remember the good not the bad, Think of the positive, not the negative. So what if you have to share a room with Cort! And Maybe you won't be able to have Shelbie. But memories, are what hold us together in the end. You are a surviver, girl. you will survive, no matter what!! You always have, and you always will. Never forget that. We, I, love you! and We will never let you go! =) Just enjoy where life takes you. And use it to make yourself, and the world a better place, I love you Brittany! =)

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"My body isn't perfect. I don't walk with confidence. I get into fights with my parents and friends. Some nights I'd rather be by myself than out partying. I cry over the smallest things sometimes. There are days that I get through forced smiles and fake laughs. Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are okay when they're not. I'm not ugly but I'm not beautiful. I don't look as good in real life as I do in pictures. There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep. I constantly think I'm not good enough. I'm imperfect, but I'm perfectly me."

Saturday, January 15, 2011

To Daniel,

I can't take back what I did, I lied and that is something that I am going to have to live with my entire life. What I did is wrong, and I know that. Baby, I don't want to go threw life without you. I love you more than anything. You are the one I am supposed to be with, forever. I screwed up. Many Times. But, Baby I love you and only you. All I do is make mistakes and I have to work on that. I have to grow up, so that we can get past this. If you will allow us to get past this. I cant stand that I hurt you. I hate myself for it. I was scared. Scared that you didn't want me, so I wanted to show you, that I was not good enough. God, I'm so stupid. I'm not good enough for you, I never have been. You are such an amazing person, inside and out.

I never did forgive you, for the Rebekah thing, I didn't mean what I said. I don't care that any of that happened. I should have told you that sooner, instead I just kept talking about it. I was jealous and stupid. She is just so pretty!!! She's skinny. I'm Not. I know you loved my body before, before the baby. That is why I feel the way I do. I want to give you that body back, but the truth is, it will never be like that.

I have so much growing up to do. And I will do it for you. I want to show you that I am serious. This is not another lie. I can't survive on my own without you. You are my other half, my missing piece. Twins separated in heaven. I love you, and have never found anyone more perfect. You are the one that I want to come home to, and I want you to come home to me.

I cringe at the thought of you being with someone else. And the same for me.

I should have told you the truth, so I will start now. I will tell you everything about me. Because I know you already know it. Because you know me better then I know myself.

Facts about me:

1.) I love when you call me Kay-kay!!

2.) I love to cuddle.

3.) I don't like my hair, but I know you do.

4.) I like to watch you sleep, you look like an angel. (I'm a creeper!!)

5.) Every time I look at you, my heart beats faster.

6.) Your touch is always seductive.

7.) You changed my life, and gave me something to live for.

8.) I'm happy when I'm with you.

9.) Your kiss always makes me melt.

10.) I do want to marry you, and I'm sorry I said I didn't.

There are many more things about you that I love. So many more truths for me to tell you. If you are interested message me. I will let you in on some secrets. Secrets that I should have told you long ago.

I love you Daniel. And I understand if you never forgive me. But Please, do not give up on me. I can change, and I will. I promise you that. I want to make things right, because your love is what keeps me going. It's what i thrive on.