True Beauty In Life: 2013

To my baby girl Kathryn!!!

Kathryn, If I had to describe you in 3 words it would be fUnNy, CuT3, CrAzIi, Your adorable, we became like best friends thru facebook and we now can't stop talking to each other <3 your my other new best friend we connected the first day we started talking and you make me smile each day and everyday we talk and I love the fact that you make me smile either way we can't see each other! You fun to talk to, we hold GREAT conversations and they are VERY interesting ha! but you make feel special. And I believe that we would be best friends till each and one of our lives is over with! xoxoxo By: ShElBiE SeArS <3

A letter to Brittany!

I see that, but everyday has it's faults. look past them. I know you move a lot. And I know that it always hurts. But remember the good not the bad, Think of the positive, not the negative. So what if you have to share a room with Cort! And Maybe you won't be able to have Shelbie. But memories, are what hold us together in the end. You are a surviver, girl. you will survive, no matter what!! You always have, and you always will. Never forget that. We, I, love you! and We will never let you go! =) Just enjoy where life takes you. And use it to make yourself, and the world a better place, I love you Brittany! =)

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"My body isn't perfect. I don't walk with confidence. I get into fights with my parents and friends. Some nights I'd rather be by myself than out partying. I cry over the smallest things sometimes. There are days that I get through forced smiles and fake laughs. Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are okay when they're not. I'm not ugly but I'm not beautiful. I don't look as good in real life as I do in pictures. There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep. I constantly think I'm not good enough. I'm imperfect, but I'm perfectly me."

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Good Night

GOOD NIGHT

As the night gets deep and dark,

Let your worries fade,

Let this night change your life,

And make it a better place.

Give you new hope,

And the love you need,

Let the stars shower you with joys,

And the moon bless you with peace.

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From: http://www.goodnightpoems.com/poem/1/

Forgive

I remember a post that I posted a while back, it's been almost two years now. I posted about how I was afraid I may just be dreaming, and that my life may not actually be what i think it is. How I was afraid to wake up and realize that, all the things I had always known weren't really there.
I think about that post a lot, now. Knowing what I would lose haunts me. I have more now than I ever have and it would rip my heart out if I were to lose it. I love my children, and my boyfriend. I love my family, both of my families. I couldn't image a world in which none of them were in it, or even a world where only one was taken away. Life just would no longer be complete. I dread the day that I will lose them, or they will lose me because I know how hard it will be. Life won't be the same, for any of us.

(When i was younger i used to write quite a lot. The adults around me told me it was a 'gift' but, sometimes I think of it as a curse. I have to write everything down, or my head would probably explode. I have so much to say, but I can only speak so much. That's why I write. I've never been able to do much of anything else, I guess I get that from my father. He is a brilliant man, with a broad vocabulary and a gift for writing as well. I should thank him for that. Dad never gave me much, but what he did give me will empower me to be the best I can be. We strive for it all, and do not stop until we have reached our goals.. I think the family is what held dad back so much. I honestly do not remember him being around much when I was a child due to him working such long hours. He missed out on a great deal of my childhood and I believe he regrets that now. As much hell as I give him, I do still love him, I just.... I still blame him for the way life turned out.

You have to understand that in the ind of a child, things are jumbled up quite a bit... It would be like taking a jig saw puzzle smashing it up, putting it in a box and shaking it around... Then take away a piece of that puzzle. In the end, you may have most of what is going on, but you are still missing that one piece, the piece that will tie it all together. And, I think that for all of these years, I haven't been able to find that piece, until now. My father worked hard for his family, we never went hungry, we were never unhappy... He truly loved us. Mom never had to work, unless she wanted to. We had friends, we had a place to live.. I hated him for so long for the things he didn't provide, when I should have been loving and thanking him for the things that he did. My dad is a great man, and I couldn't think of a better guy to have as a parent.)

But, back to the point in this post.

You should learn to appreciate the things in your life, no matter how small they are. No matter how much you think you hate it, or what someone has not done for you. Remember the things they have done... Remember the things that you have. Think of all the wonderful times, don't dread on the bad. You'll grow old, and miserable. And before you know it, life will be over and it'll be to late.

"Forgive, and forget." -As the Amish do.

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Thanks to all of you for your emails about Miss Olivia.

She is truly a blessing.

I love you all, Post soon!

Friday, August 30, 2013

Olivia Virginia Stanley

Olivia Virginia Stanley,

Born May 9th 2013

Weight 6lbs 5oz

Length 18in

!!!!SHE'S HERE!!!!

So happy to be with my baby girl, she is simply AMAZING!!!

At first, she was easy to worry about, because she was so tiny, but she's doing wonderful now.

When Olivia was born, she lost a lot of weight, she went down to 5'll and stayed there for quite some time it was hard for me when they told me I needed to quit breastfeeding because she wasn't getting the fatty protein she needed (come to find out it wasn't anything to do with my breast milk).

Olivia will be 4 months old in 10 days and I couldn't be more excited. She is now 10lbs 5oz and a wonderful giggling ROLLIE-POLLIE-OLLIE!!! :D

When i was younger, I always told myself I would never have any children. I didn't want any at all... Simply because of the way I was raised, I didn't want to put anyone through that, knowing what I did. But, now, I couldn't imagine my life without them. Michael is loving being a big brother and he is wonderful at it.

SISSY BUG!! - Michael's nickname for her.

We love our little girl, I couldn't imagine what else could have ever completed our family... But she truly does complete my life. Just wanted to let everyone know that she is finally here!!!