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To my baby girl Kathryn!!!

Kathryn, If I had to describe you in 3 words it would be fUnNy, CuT3, CrAzIi, Your adorable, we became like best friends thru facebook and we now can't stop talking to each other <3 your my other new best friend we connected the first day we started talking and you make me smile each day and everyday we talk and I love the fact that you make me smile either way we can't see each other! You fun to talk to, we hold GREAT conversations and they are VERY interesting ha! but you make feel special. And I believe that we would be best friends till each and one of our lives is over with! xoxoxo By: ShElBiE SeArS <3

A letter to Brittany!

I see that, but everyday has it's faults. look past them. I know you move a lot. And I know that it always hurts. But remember the good not the bad, Think of the positive, not the negative. So what if you have to share a room with Cort! And Maybe you won't be able to have Shelbie. But memories, are what hold us together in the end. You are a surviver, girl. you will survive, no matter what!! You always have, and you always will. Never forget that. We, I, love you! and We will never let you go! =) Just enjoy where life takes you. And use it to make yourself, and the world a better place, I love you Brittany! =)

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"My body isn't perfect. I don't walk with confidence. I get into fights with my parents and friends. Some nights I'd rather be by myself than out partying. I cry over the smallest things sometimes. There are days that I get through forced smiles and fake laughs. Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are okay when they're not. I'm not ugly but I'm not beautiful. I don't look as good in real life as I do in pictures. There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep. I constantly think I'm not good enough. I'm imperfect, but I'm perfectly me."

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

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"I want to wear your sweatshirt to bed, watch scary movies with you, talk on the phone until sunrise, sneak out at night to look at the stars with you, play your favorite video game. Make you Watch chick flicks, kiss you in the rain, go on walks with you, laugh until I can't breathe, hold hands, build a fort and have a snowball fight, sit in front of the fireplace and talk about life. I want to fall hopelessly in love with you!"

Well, as all of you can see, I am back with the love of my life, the most amazing man I have ever met. The man that not only made me fall in love with him, 3 years ago, but someone I have cared for, for the past 7 years. He always has me smiling, and laughing. I can't help but just be happy around him. Adam gives me everything no one else has ever been able to give, happiness. <3

When I was 12, I first ran into Adam on a church bus. I was new and had made friends with his brother, JC (who is now my best friend). I HATED Adam, with a passion! I didn't like the way he acted, I didn't like the way he dressed.. I didn't like the way he flirted with everyone he saw! Haha, Go figure :)

After a few months, I started trying to get to know him on Myspace, and oddly started finding him attractive. I tried, and tried, and TRIED to keep talking to him, but, he wanted NOTHING to do with me!!! Hahaha! Who would'a guessed!? He kept trying to hook me up with his friends, he knew I liked him, but wanted nothing to do with it. I don't think he even found me at all friendly.

Adam and I ended up dating a few times, because I wasn't going to give up!!! He was my first kiss, and my first love. Well, honestly, he was my only love, and always has been!

After a few differences, we kept breaking up, thought I still stayed his. Always was, he knew that and it was like he played that to his advantage. At least, that's how I felt about it. I loved him though, so I didn't really mind, you know? I was always doing the same, no matter who either of us dated, though we were always together. He was my best friend, and I had my life planned out with him! <3

Fast-forward to, 3 years ago.

I met a guy, Daniel.

Yes, we all know Daniel, he's my son's dad. Haha. :)

I thought that since Adam didn't want me, that I would give Daniel a shot. Not to mention I was trying to prove a point to my friend, Daniels girlfriend at the time. She thought she was so much better than everyone else, so I was going to show her that I could get whoever I wanted, including her boyfriend. I didn't intend on getting pregnant. Lol. Although, I am glad that I did. I mean, it's rough to be a young mom, and not have his father here. But, I know that my child is a miracle and that he is a very important piece of my life now.. I believe that he saved me.

Anyways, back to my story.

I stopped talking to Adam for 2 years, thinking it would help me get over him. It didn't. SADFACE!

It made me miss him more, made me love him more... I wanted his kisses, I wanted his hugs.. I wanted his everything! I knew then, and I know now that I couldn't love anyone else. He is my one and only. he is my other half, he is my soul mate.. I hope he really knows that. About 6 months ago I started talking to Adam again, and he kept telling me that he wanted me back, and he missed me and that he didn't want to mess it up. >.< Go figure, he did.

Every time he said he was going to come see me, he didn't. He kept standing me up, so I told him that I was tired of it, and stopped talking to him again. Haha :)

Yes, I know... I'm a bitch! <3

Around Christmas he messaged me again and was asking when I was going to take time to go see him, my reply was.... "Why would I waist time out of my life, to go see you, if you aren't going to waist your time to come see me??" Yeah, that's right, I went there!! ^_^ I told him what was on my mind, and he didn't like it! I am pretty sure that I hurt him, and it didn't bother me. Because he hurt me.

Finally, after weeks of his brother, JC, telling me that all Adam talked about was me and that he really missed me, I decided to give it a shot. I started texting him again... And one thing led to another and I got what I really wanted.. I wanted us to both be happy.. To be happy, I had to be with him. And, I am happy. I do love him, with all of my heart! <3 He's simply amazing!

Figured I would also give you all an update on how my life has been going:

We have started clinical s at school. We go to the hospital Monday through Friday to give baths, change beds, and help with cleaning. (We arrive too late to help with feeding)
I have a 4.0 in school, go figure! :D Be happy for me! Please :D haha
Michael's birthday is in just 2 weeks! He will be 2, can you all believe that!!!!! <3 <3 <3 I'm super psyched!
Hoping to get me an apartment here soon, get myself up and running and be able to start Vlogging! That will help a lot with this! Will keep me up on here more often!

Well, I think that's all for today, I will just give you a few photos :) I love you all, thanks for taking the time to read! <3 You are so amazing! ^_^